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People have always told me that it's a 'big bad world' out there and the best way to learn from it is to be dropped off at a point and forced to deal with it. So when the time came, i was sent, i was pushed out and the last thing i remember of my childhood were the words, "Have fun!"
Having taken that leap all those years ago i have been forced to deal with life and al lthe complcations, drama, and overly stressing ordeals that come included at the bottom in the fine print of the contract that we all sign away on when we become "adults"
It's scary to think about really, but in the end we all learn to cope with it in our ways and we turn out just fine..though for some, that still remains to be seen.
Naturally, it came as a disappointment to me when my experience or lack there of to cope was brought under scrutiny and i found myself in my least favorite corner with no escape hatch and only my wrods and actions to save me. Like any cornered being, i lashed out and meant to kill. unfortunately i am back in the ring facing the same old enemy.
I like to consider myself a tolerant person of reasonable means, always trying to find out the best and most diplomatic approach to solve anything before having to resort to the not so nice and undesirable mentionings that i have picked up in "the real world."
Yet, it is, however, when i'm constantly being backed up into a corner or poked and prodded for answers or drilled for information regarding someone that seems to be forever elusively "out of reach" that my patience is worn thin and i snap. You can't blame me for trying but in the end even i have my limits.
You who are reading this perchance are prolbably wondering what the hell i'm talking about. While i know i am not being crystal clear, those of you who are in the know, you know who you are.
It is sad, and somewhat pathetic to think that something like friendship can be easily broken like a knife slicing into paper. so fragile and unstable but thats life for you. Don't come in with too many high hopes and expectations as you'll find in this cruel place that they will be scrutinized, examined, and torn to shreads in an instant or upon detection of the slightest hint of naivety.
Let it be further said, that after all this i have come to agree with those that conclude that the world is no place for a child; no matter how old you are. It just goes to show that even a child's dream can be killed. Perhaps it best then, that they remain locked away forever in their own special world of comfort and sacutary. Or perhaps, they just need to be pushed out and left to survive. Either way, childish antics and perceptions of the world, its culture and a sense of constant naivety are not qualities i have the capacity to tollerate. So in all fairness, You who remain to be kept annoynomous to the eyes of prying minds and the sympathetic of plight, consider this a reminder...i am a tolerant person in all sense of the meaning. Just don't overstep your boundries.
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Having taken that leap all those years ago i have been forced to deal with life and al lthe complcations, drama, and overly stressing ordeals that come included at the bottom in the fine print of the contract that we all sign away on when we become "adults"
It's scary to think about really, but in the end we all learn to cope with it in our ways and we turn out just fine..though for some, that still remains to be seen.
Naturally, it came as a disappointment to me when my experience or lack there of to cope was brought under scrutiny and i found myself in my least favorite corner with no escape hatch and only my wrods and actions to save me. Like any cornered being, i lashed out and meant to kill. unfortunately i am back in the ring facing the same old enemy.
I like to consider myself a tolerant person of reasonable means, always trying to find out the best and most diplomatic approach to solve anything before having to resort to the not so nice and undesirable mentionings that i have picked up in "the real world."
Yet, it is, however, when i'm constantly being backed up into a corner or poked and prodded for answers or drilled for information regarding someone that seems to be forever elusively "out of reach" that my patience is worn thin and i snap. You can't blame me for trying but in the end even i have my limits.
You who are reading this perchance are prolbably wondering what the hell i'm talking about. While i know i am not being crystal clear, those of you who are in the know, you know who you are.
It is sad, and somewhat pathetic to think that something like friendship can be easily broken like a knife slicing into paper. so fragile and unstable but thats life for you. Don't come in with too many high hopes and expectations as you'll find in this cruel place that they will be scrutinized, examined, and torn to shreads in an instant or upon detection of the slightest hint of naivety.
Let it be further said, that after all this i have come to agree with those that conclude that the world is no place for a child; no matter how old you are. It just goes to show that even a child's dream can be killed. Perhaps it best then, that they remain locked away forever in their own special world of comfort and sacutary. Or perhaps, they just need to be pushed out and left to survive. Either way, childish antics and perceptions of the world, its culture and a sense of constant naivety are not qualities i have the capacity to tollerate. So in all fairness, You who remain to be kept annoynomous to the eyes of prying minds and the sympathetic of plight, consider this a reminder...i am a tolerant person in all sense of the meaning. Just don't overstep your boundries.
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